Polar plunge….

Being at the Polar plunge this year was hard….another memory of the time you were still alive….I can remember walking a lot that day, my back hurting… people noticing my bump and excitedly telling them we are excited for your arrival in about 6 more weeks…we had no idea the nightmare we would be living in a week. We were blissfully happy, excited and eager to meet you. To watch Jordyn grow up with you. The memories are flooding in, the days are getting harder the closer we get to the one year anniversary. How can it be one year already? Time has stood still yet it feels like light years since I held you in my arms. I look at pictures of you, you were perfect, perfect in every way except one….you were not breathing….still….silent…..limp……