Two months…5/7/22

I cant believe it has been two months since you were born sleeping…look at how perfect you were Parker, our beautiful, precious son. How I miss your cute button nose and your little lips…you look so peaceful here…while your mommies were waging the hardest day of their lives…I am so glad that we got to hold you and take in every detail of you that day…what I would have given for you to live, to come home with us. I still lose my breath when I truly think about you being gone forever, it becomes hard to breathe…I feel like I am suffocating…my world got darker on that day, some of the light shut off, never to turn back on…my eyes saw death again, death of my innocent son, death before your life could even begin…the second male who was my world to leave before my eyes…Parker I wish I could have saved you, I would have done anything if it meant your heart would have kept on beating…I miss you so much Parker and I love you even more… Godspeed little man, my angel, my son…